"This life therefore, is not godliness but the process of becoming godly, not health but getting well, not being but becoming, not rest but exercise. We are not now what we shall be, but we are on the way. The process is not yet finished, but it is actively going on. This is not the goal, but it is the right road. At present, everything does not gleam and sparkle, but everything is being cleansed." --Martin Luther

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

what's the point?

What’s the point of doing this silly (stupid?) blog anyway? Sometimes I wonder. There isn’t much we feel like saying lately, or at least anything we would want to post. And all bloggers know that in order to keep an audience you really need to write every other day or so. We usually don’t feel like doing that. What is it suppose to be about anymore anyway? We don’t really need to do the family update thing as we are near the grandparents. We don’t feel we are learning and living anything out too exciting and “spiritual” right now. (more on where that came from later) There is no passion, no drive, no nothing. We’ve lost readers I know because of it. Who wants to read someone else’s misery?
We’ve always tried to present an honest look at what it was like to go on the mission field, be on the mission filed, and now to come back. So that part of the “it” isn’t over. Basically we still continue to struggle with being here and what took place when we were there. Africa is now a part of us.
But “it” wasn’t really just about Africa. “It” is about walking out our faith. And we are, and still will keep doing that. Because no matter what-despite how much it hurts-we still have our faith in God. If this doesn’t make us lose it, I don’t think anything ever will!
So, yeah, we have been doing some writing now. (By the time you read some of them, they maybe a few weeks old) Some of it is very personal and truthful about what tricks and lies the devil is throwing at us and how HARD it is to resist them, to capture our thoughts. IT IS HARD. Some of these next ones may be a little brutal. But just as before, God is there and in it. He wants to hear it all-He’s big enough to handle it! And some will say, why not just journal for yourself then? Why put all these thoughts on the internet for the world to see? Because we are suppose to. Why? We don’t know. We know this blog isn’t only for us-it may be for you. But until we aren’t supposed to share online anymore, we will.
Thank you for coming along with us on our walk. We appreciate you and your prayers more than you will ever know!

1 comment:

Christine said...

Brian and Kelly Jo,
As you already know there is a healing that come through writing and if you are at all like me, God speaks to you through your writing. THat alone is enough reason to write but you also need to do it for those of us who still want to hear. Those who still want to not just understand but support you as you adjust to the new normal and heal from the hurts. Please keep writing. Thanks for meeting with me today. I really enjoyed our visit.