"This life therefore, is not godliness but the process of becoming godly, not health but getting well, not being but becoming, not rest but exercise. We are not now what we shall be, but we are on the way. The process is not yet finished, but it is actively going on. This is not the goal, but it is the right road. At present, everything does not gleam and sparkle, but everything is being cleansed." --Martin Luther

Monday, April 12, 2010


I have applied for several jobs. The most recent one was recommended from a friend of mine with the company he is with. It seemed like a pretty good fit at first glance. There was only one real concern and that was the amount of travel involved. I would be on the road 60-70% of the time. The more I thought about it the more I did not like it. I know I could do the job. But it was not about that, it was about what is best for my family and me. It is just not good for a parent or the kids to be gone that much. You can easily become disconnected from the family. My kids are young and I would miss out on most of their life. It is not healthy for spouses to be apart that much, how can you grow together if you’re not together? You just can’t. One of the biggest reasons was my own well being. I looked at it this way, a guy out on the road all week alone. He misses his wife and kids, he’s lonely. And you know what happens- satan lays a trap, a temptation right in front of you. Maybe it is a porno on the hotel TV or a pretty gal sitting at the bar. What do you do? You ask most guys if they would remain true to their family and themselves, of course they would say yes immediately. But I don’t think you can truly answer that question until you are faced with it. I cannot say beyond any doubt that I would remain faithful. There are just too many circumstances that could play in. Maybe you have been fighting with your wife, she doesn’t understand why you have to work so much, the stress of the job, you have not been intimate with her for some time, you’re lonely and you feel underappreciated. After all you are doing all this for her and the kids and she is not happy. And your relationship with the kids is deteriorating because they are growing up and you’re not around. The bottom line is we are all capable of anything. To say you’re not just shows your own pride I think. I know myself and I know I am capable of anything. And for that reason I make a point not to put myself into positions where I could fall. For my spiritual health and that of my family, I chose to rescind my application. I know in my heart it is the right thing to do.

No comments: