According to my big master schedule, 8:30 is supposed to be “bible time.” Well, for right now it is 9 pm. We get together as the fam and I read 3 chapters out of the bible. Have NOT been doing this very consistently, but we just finished Genesis the other night and on to Exodus we go. About the 3rd chapter God starts laying it out for Moses. You are going to do this, this, and this; then this, this and this will happen. Moses of course says well, I am not this or good at this though… God says no worries; I will be with you (the paraphrased version!). Brian and I were both huh-ing. God told Moses what was going to happen, BUT…He didn’t tell him exactly how hard it was going to be! I am thinking Moses would have said, ha! I soooo don’t think so!
We are so wishing in our own personal lives that God would just tell us what is going to happen, where/if to go, what to do, who to be with, all that stuff. And as we wait we are confident that God will lead and guide and direct and confirm to us what is next. And eventually we’ll get excited, or at least driven, to whatever is coming next. But He ain’t gonna tell us how hard it is going to be. ‘Cuz looking back on all this hard stuff-yup, it was GOOD for us (not happy-good, but good nevertheless). Would we have said yes had we known the hard stuff? I really don’t know. Maybe, thinking naively how great it would be (i.e. adoption). And now-we think of all the possibilities of what the next thing could be…and I gotta tell you-it’s a lot scarier to say yes. It’s a lot harder to even contemplate listening to what God calls. I mean, really-we have no for-sures or even plans for anything in the future right now, so I’m not even thinking anything specific-but really, I am soooo not wanting to put our family back out on the front lines. And ANY time we listen to what God says and obey-we are on the front lines-the enemy’s front lines.